I was pissed off at xleste this evening. She asked if I was having any transcendental experiences, and when I described to her what my interpretation is, she told me I was totally in my head and not in my body, with the implication that one has to be in one's body for this to work.

I accused her of telling me I was doing it wrong, which she denied. I still think she was telling me that I was doing it wrong. They would say in this place that both interpretations are right anyway. I think that may be a sort of personal koan.

And speaking of personal things, I think I just had a transcendental experience in my sleep. Actually, thinking of the description more, I am less confident that it was transcendental. I think i was more of the Zen description of "being one with."

In outline form:

-I've had the experience before.

-I got there in my dream through personal experience rather than isolation of voices as practiced in big mind.

-I medicated last time because I was worried that it was mania.

-its the same as an experience I have of mania and ecstasy.


( more musing )